In Sight of my God


In Sight of my God

“In Sight of my God” is a song about losing faith in the god of your childhood and discovering the fundamental, earthy God within.

Modchik is the long time musical project of John Stanford. His latest album “Canton” is the usual story of boy meets girl, boy nearly drowns, girl is mentally unstable, boy becomes alcoholic, girl kills herself, boy loses himself in depression, girl discovers where suicides go after death, boy loses faith in God. It features songs influenced by his move to the wilds of Northern New York. Modchik’s musical influences include Bauhaus, Kraut Rock, The Waterboys, Nick Cave, Elvis Presley, The Carpenters, David Bowie, Sonic Youth, The Velvet Underground, Mercury Rev, Mike Garson, The Concretes, Rufus Wainwright and Aqua. John is also, writer, director, and producer of the film Firofyfe, which was screened at the Queens (NY) Film Festival and the Takoma Park Film Festival.

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“The holes in your hands,
And the blood on your brow,
They mean nothing,
At all.
Supreme masochist.
All the feet that you kissed,
It changed nothing,
At all

When we come, we drink,
we form, we hate,
we doubt, we call,
We become

When we cry, we walk,
we serve, we feel,
we write, we feed,
We become

When we end, we turn,
we have, we see,
we start, we need,
We become

When we stumble, produce,
diminish, compete,
abandon, unlock
We become

In the cold, in the dark,
In the pain, in the scars,
When alone with what’s ours
We become

In the cold, in the dark,
When it all falls apart
Alone with our holes
We become

And I’ll stab my eyes in the sight of my god.
And I’ll flay my skin in the sight of my god.
And I’ll burn my hair in the sight of my god.
And I’ll break my fingers in the sight of my god.”



The full track list for this Spring 2012 anthology album consists of 10 tracks and 47 minutes of fantastic music:

  1. Modchik – In Sight of my God
  2. Doleful Lions – Underground Werewolf Scribe Agape
  3. Ego and the Ids – Knight in the Abyss
  4. Khan Kurra – Sumeria
  5. Josh Howell – Infinite Mind
  6. Hyle – In and Out of Consensus Reality
  7. LVX1313 & Ikipr – Ω ‏ש‎
  8. Kim Cascone – Metals, Nebulae & Stars
  9. Jersey Petroleum – As The Vessel Burns
  10. Dark Mother Dub – Loa Crisis


The Hermetic Library at has an overall vision of Archiving, Engaging and Encouraging the living Western Esoteric Tradition. I started the benefit anthology project to help promote newer works in the Western Esoteric Tradition to the audience of the Hermetic Library and beyond. The anthology project also further raises awareness about the corpus and culture of magick and ritual.

This Spring 2012 issue from the Hermetic Library Anthology Project is being released in mid-June. There’s 10 tracks on this anthology album from a number of new and returning artists. This is a playlist that makes me want to dance, makes me want to laugh, makes me want more. It’s got an itch that wants to be scratched, and that’s what Spring is all about. This release starts out with a strong rock beat with a glitchy guitar riff then moves to a moody melody with attitude. From there, an impromptu rap collaboration that leads to a strong electronica beat. A distorted electronica beat accelerates into an extended set of different raw glitched audio energy from several artists. The penultimate track is a fantastically awkward, lyrical and poetic piece that pretty much is exactly everything about how Spring feels to me, and then ultimately full circle to a final catchy and glitchy guitar riff that I think strongly and authoritatively announces an abrupt crossing of the sun into the coming Summer.

There’s a lot of itchy glitchy sounds to this playlist that seem to me just perfect for the feeling of the warm spring sun. You also know this feeling of everything stretching Winter-sore muscles and just aching to start running or climbing through the sudden sunshine. The cover image for this anthology builds on the sequential narrative, the progression from the previous anthology visuals and is meant to evoke the same Spring-like tension developing, an explosive potential just barely managing to hold itself in.

I encourage you to check out the Hermetic Library at, if you aren’t already familiar with it, as that’s the reason this project exists and may also offer inspiration to you. The site was started in 1996 and has ever since consistently been an extremely popular resource for students and researchers interested in the Western Esoteric Tradition. You may also wish to check out other posts at the Hermetic Library blog and the Twitter and Facebook reflections to see how the library engages people in a living Western Esoteric Tradition.

Please join the Hermetic Library in promoting these artists who have contributed their work to this benefit anthology album project. All proceeds from album sales will support the library to help cover hosting costs and other expenses like materials acquisitions.

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